Showing posts with label the Job Hunt. Show all posts
Showing posts with label the Job Hunt. Show all posts

Thursday, June 9, 2011

seeking drone for [insert meaningful position here]

A few days ago an old friend from my small group at confirmation camp (back in 7th grade!) texted me "what's up?"  I said I was looking for a job and, after two (relatively short) days of active searching I was feeling a bit hopeless about it.  Because suddenly it hit me that not only am I looking for some summer income, but I should probably start figuring out what's next, you know, what comes at the end of the summer.  I'd like to start on a trajectory, a "career path," as they say, but a job title and even a specific description of what I'd like to do evades me.

I said I wanted to work with kids, and he said he'd had a youth counselor when he was younger and he thought it had to be a really hard job.  I said I thought it sounded like an opportunity to form meaningful relationships.  "Well that depends on how you define 'meaningful,'" he said, and I almost laughed out loud.  "You're talking to an anthropology major," I replied.  "Of course it's vague, and open for interpretation."

It was a can of worms I maybe should have left alone, but it's a good and painfully relevant question.  Just today a classmate and good friend called me asking the same basic question: how can I do meaningful work?  Especially when I have to think about how I'm going to survive?!

On Wednesday morning I took a brief break from the Job Hunt to write thank-you notes, and around 10:30 in the morning I got a phone call asking if I could come in to a winery on main street for an interview that afternoon.  On my way to that interview, after posting my letters, I got a phone call from the Indian restaurant on main street asking if I could come in to chat that evening.  At 6 he said, "You're familiar with Indian food?  How about you come in tomorrow just before 11?"

So today was my first day of work.  I LOVED offering recommendations, filling water glasses, clearing plates, bantering with the kitchen staff...  It was a slow day, and the back of the shop was so from the kitchen, but one group of women asked at the end of their meal, "What was your name?  We plan to come back here and see you again."  I smiled, "Great, I look forward to it!"  And they said, "We look forward to it too!"

Meaningful work?  The way I see it now, meaningful is not an adjective but an adverb: I work meaningfully.  Like a good anthropology major, I know that meaningful is a state of mind more than a fixed factual description.  I know who I am and what I value, and that is something I carry with me into any interview, any job, any relationship, even any 2-minute conversation.

Monday, June 6, 2011

will work for homeostasis

Monday.  Waking up feels like any other day of my life.

But it's not like any other day in my life.  It's not summer and it's not the school year.  It has never seemed more truly the first day of the rest of my life.  Today I have to be more self-efficacious than ever before in my life, and I feel strangely energized by the probably over-dramatized weight I'm putting on this particular Monday, June 6, 2011.

We've been hearing for years that nobody's getting hired these days, especially not right out of college.  I've been reading on Facebook and hearing through the grapevine about friends who can't find a job anywhere.  I was feeling lucky the other day at the number of "we're hiring" signs, and the overall bright responses I received to the question "Are you hiring, by any chance?"  But it's another story entirely to actually present myself for work, to fill out an application and turn it in.  It seems strange that practically shoving my (very valuable, if I do say so myself) time and energy at someone would feel so much like stepping on toes, but it does.  Maybe it's just my pride.

Which I am trying to squash, for a lot of different reasons.  It's a hard balance, to be proud enough not to stand for things that are hurtful to my self but not so proud that it's an obstacle to action.  Not easy to figure out and not easy to do.  Better just to plunge into it and work it out later -- at this point inertia is one of the most terrifying pathogens I think most of us can imagine.

Speaking of balance, living seems to be right now a series of pretty precarious balancing acts.  In the front of my mind right now there's the social consciousness-financial feasibility tightrope: do we buy organic foods from the co-op downtown or buy everything for a dollar at Aldi?  After four years at an institution like St. Olaf that puts so much emphasis on sustainability, living "green," avoiding products assembled by blind children in third-world countries or sprayed with deadly pesticides, it's been a bit of a struggle not to read the label on every product before we buy it.  The truth is, it's just not practical.  I want to care for the world I live in, but sometimes that means eating canned black beans grown and processed who knows where for 79 cents a can, just so I can get through the day.  And I'll try to turn off the lights when I'm not using them.  I really will do my best.

Another unexpected shock comes when we have been, so far, locked inside our house before nightfall every night we've stayed here, with the alarm system turned on.  My work availability is limited because I am not comfortable, as a young woman, riding my bike home alone from a late-night shift or hangout at a bar downtown.  I'm hardly even comfortable walking past uncovered windows after dark, not knowing what's out there.  Even though this seems like a fairly safe, small town, I perceive danger in my gender and my age, and the fact that after four years at St. Olaf my street smarts are baby-soft like my feet at the end of winter before I start running around barefoot on beds of hot rocks full of biting insects.  Or some variation of that feat.

In any case, it seems our party days are over.  And for Bizz-squared(TM), this could be a big adjustment.

I realized today that, when left to my own devices, I Get Things Done.  I tend to feel paralyzed when I know that my actions impact someone else, someone's schedule or living space or conception of the world.  This is a good thing to realize, so that I can start to sort out what is important for me to do for myself and how much I can feasibly take into consideration other people's toes, as it were.  Inertia.  Paralysis.  Terrifying.

So today, I turned in 3 job applications.  I put an important envelope in the mail and rented a P.O. box.  I visited the Chamber of Commerce for information about local businesses; the county information center for new resident resources; the Lucky Cup Coffeehouse for lunch; and the local Edward Jones branch office for a quick refresher course in personal finance.  I imported all my mail and contacts into gmail.  I checked out The Help from the library.  And I sweated through every item of clothing I put on this morning.

I think I can go home satisfied.

Friday, June 3, 2011

TICKing things off the list

100 Facebook notifications (mostly from my sister)
20 file folders
15 boxes (give or take) in the back of the truck
8-dollar swimsuit bottoms
5 wood ticks (and counting...)
4 years' worth of Asian beetle carcasses littering the floor of our summer home
3 job applications
2 (HUGE) scoops of ice cream
1 enormous farmhouse

I know I should be able to count by now (I remember when Steve from "Blues Clues" got replaced on the show so he could go to college and learn how to count to 50) but I'm going to use the excuse that in real life sometimes numbers in the countdown get skipped.  At least I can get from 5 to 1 backwards without too much of a hitch...

Ann and I have been moving for days, Monday and Tuesday spent moving our entire lives out of Northfield and, step by step, up to St. Croix Falls for the summer.  We're feeling pretty accomplished, since we already cleaned most of the space we're going to be using in the house and have moved the bulk of our items into the downstairs library, where it should stay cool enough to sleep comfortably at night.  We'll ride bikes to work (and to church, and to wherever we go for fun on Friday nights).  We plan to live simply, in two rooms of the huge farmhouse and mostly outdoors, without air conditioning.  We're still deciding if we will splurge on internet, and the Monthly Grocery Bill Bets are open.

On the plus side, we walked up and down Main Street this afternoon and a decent number of places are hiring!  I'm feeling a bit overqualified, but right now I'm mostly concerned with diving into the community so I just want to meet as many people as possible, and be friendly to everyone.  We've been waving at other drivers and so far everybody seems receptive.  We already got a warm welcome at the Lucky Cup (which has Wi-Fi!) and signed our brand-new St. Croix Falls Public Library cards!  We plan to hit up the Music on the Overlook on Friday evenings and the Farmers' Market on Saturday.  This weekend, there is a safari-themed petting zoo.  Our new friend Cole at the library enticed us into going by naming an animal we'd never heard of, and said we'd have to come back and pet it if we wanted to find out what it was.

The ticks will take some getting used to.  It's a bad year for ticks, i.e. they are EVERYWHERE, and while EmRo got the bulk of them last week today Ann and I squashed about 10 overall.  I'm working on the bug thing, sweeping up the Asian beetles and daddy long-legs without squirming too much, not screaming at bees or ticks, and basically just discovering how to be comfortable with the parts of nature that bite and sting.  This should prove a character-building summer for me.

I couldn't be more pumped.